Embracing Uncertainty

I’m nosy.

There. I said it. I’m really nosy! I hate being out of a loop or kept in the dark, I hate not knowing what’s going on an what’s going to happen next. Very much like the main character in The Earth Angel Training Academy – Velvet. She spends most of the book wondering what the hell is going on and getting annoyed when others seem to know what the bigger picture is and she doesn’t. Come to think of it, I’m quite like Aria the Faerie too. She’s always eavesdropping and spying on other people’s conversations. Hmm.

Because of my need to know everything, I have had many, many readings, from mediums and psychics and intuitive friends, all in my quest to know what’s going to happen. Most of the time, those readings bring comfort because they just reassure me that no matter what is going on in the present moment, it’s all going to turn out just fine. Which, let’s be honest, that’s the main reason why anyone has a reading – to be told – it’s all good!

The problem I have been experiencing, is that there have been predictions made in these readings that I don’t like. I’ve been told that things will happen, that quite honestly, I don’t want to happen. (not because they’re bad, but because they’re not things I would choose to experience). And so I set on a quest to choose the opposite. After all, we have free will, right?

But no matter how hard I was choosing, in further readings, the same predictions came up over and over, and it seemed like everything was conspiring to make this path happen.

So I gave in. I said – fine, if this is what is mean to be, then I’ll do it.

I thought that by giving in and going with the flow, the rest of my life would fall into place and start working. But it didn’t. In fact, I found I was even more stuck, because unconsciously I was stopping doing things that might take me down that path I didn’t want to go down.

So I made a new choice – I don’t want that life. It is not my choice. And even if the path I am choosing is a little more rocky, so be it.

All of this, of course, made me realise that sometimes, knowing what our future holds can be a big problem. Because we get attached or repelled by what we’re told is to come. And it affects our decisions, and our ability to remain in the present moment.

Yesterday I was reading excerpts of The Earth Angel Training Academy, and I found this quote, from the Rainbow Children, when they are asked to predict someone’s future. Despite my nosiness, and the fact that I know so many mediums and psychics that I have great respect for, I think it’s time that I let go of all the predictions, let go of my need for certainty, and embrace the wild ride of life on a moment to moment basis.

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Of course, the ironic thing is, that once we let go of the predictions and live in the moment, we tend to end up creating the future we wanted anyway.

Don’t you just love how the Universe works?

 

PS. I still recommend having a reading if you are looking to connect with someone you’ve lost, or you need reassurance that you’re on the right path, but no matter what comes up, do your best not to get too attached to it.


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Michelle is the author and publisher of 10 Visionary Fiction novels, all available on Amazon in paperback and on Kindle. She spends her days helping Indie Authors to publish their books, taking photographs of mushrooms and making gluten-free cakes.

If you need any help with your publishing journey, please do get in touch with her by emailing theamethystangel@hotmail.co.uk. You can book a Skype session or a phone call with her, or ask questions via email. Please do follow her publishing blog to receive more posts on Indie Publishing.


 

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Is everything written in the stars (and planets)?

I recently met an astrologer, Keith Bound, through a friend of mine (Liz Chukwu, author of Kismet), who did a reading for me. I have had many readings from mediums and psychics, and also tarot and palm readings. Most of which have been quite good, and quite accurate, but this was the first astrology reading I’ve had, and quite honestly, it blew me away.

Keith had my basic information – birth date, time and place. He also knew that I helped authors to publish their work. But that was it. He then looked at my chart and recorded a 58 minute reading and sent it to me as an MP3. The first time I listened to it, I alternated between giggling and gasping, wondering how on earth he could get so much information from just my basic details.

I won’t go into detail about what Keith told me in the reading, although I will say that the overall theme is that the next 12 months of my life are going to be very exciting, with lots of big opportunities coming up. The reading came at the perfect time, as I was in need of confirmation that I was on the right track, and Keith gave me that confirmation, and the confidence to continue on my path.

Having the reading made me wonder, yet again, about fate and destiny. Do we really have the free will to choose what we want to do in our lives, or is it all mapped out ready for us from the moment we are born? Or is it even decided before we are born?

I explored this idea a little in The Elphite, where Ellie lives the same life over and over again. She tries to change things each time, but no matter what she does, there are certain things that happen regardless of her actions. But as you will know if you have read the book, she does manage to change her life when she changes her thinking.

People have asked me why I would want to have a reading that foretold the future, why I would want to know what is going to happen ahead of time, and my response to that is that I like to have confirmation that I am on the right path. I have had readings where I’ve been told that certain things aren’t going to work out, or that situations or relationships are going to be difficult. And instead of this information worrying or upsetting me, I find that it gives me the gift of being able to choose how I handle the situation when it arrives. Because as much as I hate plotting my novels and I love to surprise my readers with mad twists, in real life, I like to know what’s going to happen next.

Stay tuned, because 2014 is going to be a wild ride, and this is where you will be able to read all about it.

PS. Get in touch with Keith for a reading, it will be the best thing you’ve ever done, I promise.