I’m nosy.

There. I said it. I’m really nosy! I hate being out of a loop or kept in the dark, I hate not knowing what’s going on an what’s going to happen next. Very much like the main character in The Earth Angel Training Academy – Velvet. She spends most of the book wondering what the hell is going on and getting annoyed when others seem to know what the bigger picture is and she doesn’t. Come to think of it, I’m quite like Aria the Faerie too. She’s always eavesdropping and spying on other people’s conversations. Hmm.

Because of my need to know everything, I have had many, many readings, from mediums and psychics and intuitive friends, all in my quest to know what’s going to happen. Most of the time, those readings bring comfort because they just reassure me that no matter what is going on in the present moment, it’s all going to turn out just fine. Which, let’s be honest, that’s the main reason why anyone has a reading – to be told – it’s all good!

The problem I have been experiencing, is that there have been predictions made in these readings that I don’t like. I’ve been told that things will happen, that quite honestly, I don’t want to happen. (not because they’re bad, but because they’re not things I would choose to experience). And so I set on a quest to choose the opposite. After all, we have free will, right?

But no matter how hard I was choosing, in further readings, the same predictions came up over and over, and it seemed like everything was conspiring to make this path happen.

So I gave in. I said – fine, if this is what is mean to be, then I’ll do it.

I thought that by giving in and going with the flow, the rest of my life would fall into place and start working. But it didn’t. In fact, I found I was even more stuck, because unconsciously I was stopping doing things that might take me down that path I didn’t want to go down.

So I made a new choice – I don’t want that life. It is not my choice. And even if the path I am choosing is a little more rocky, so be it.

All of this, of course, made me realise that sometimes, knowing what our future holds can be a big problem. Because we get attached or repelled by what we’re told is to come. And it affects our decisions, and our ability to remain in the present moment.

Yesterday I was reading excerpts of The Earth Angel Training Academy, and I found this quote, from the Rainbow Children, when they are asked to predict someone’s future. Despite my nosiness, and the fact that I know so many mediums and psychics that I have great respect for, I think it’s time that I let go of all the predictions, let go of my need for certainty, and embrace the wild ride of life on a moment to moment basis.

Of course, the ironic thing is, that once we let go of the predictions and live in the moment, we tend to end up creating the future we wanted anyway.

Don’t you just love how the Universe works?

PS. I still recommend having a reading if you are looking to connect with someone you’ve lost, or you need reassurance that you’re on the right path, but no matter what comes up, do your best not to get too attached to it.

Michelle is the author and publisher of 10 Visionary Fiction novels, all available on Amazon in paperback and on Kindle. She spends her days helping Indie Authors to publish their books, taking photographs of mushrooms and making gluten-free cakes.

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