Category Spiritual

Sep 5 2022

Nothing Matters

I ran out of room in my inbox yesterday, and my clients’ emails were bouncing. So I began the mammoth task of deleting some of the eight thousand unread emails.

Several hundred deletes later, and I’d only freed up 2%. So I thought I’d tackle my sent box. I started from the oldest emails, which went back to 2008. But of course, curiosity got the better of me when I spotted one I sent to a friend titled ‘My Life’s Purpose’ so of course I had to open it! And I found the text below:

“I had been writing in my journal that I needed to know why I am here, in this time in this life. And I have to admit, I always assumed that I would find out my life’s purpose through someone else, I don’t know why. I also assumed it was something that was already set, not something we had much say in. Anyway, I read this book, Bringers of Light by Neale donald walsh (convo with god guy) and one of the things he says is: “Life in pointless, and that is Gods greatest gift” AT first the idea depressed me, if there’s no point to life, why bother with anything? But he goes on to explain that we are not assigned a purpose, we may choose one before we get here, that we’ve forgotten about, but ultimately, we CHOOSE. Which means that the only purpose we have in life is the one we choose. So it wasn’t a matter of me finding my life’s purpose, it was a matter of me CHOOSING my life’s purpose. Then of course I was thinking, oh crap, I’m useless at making big decisions! Then the other day, I was sitting outside, crocheting, and I was having conversations in my head as per usual, and in answer to the imaginary questions of what are you going to do in the future, the reply that came to me was: I am not here to drink and party, I am not here to settle down, have kids and a career, I am not here to do what would seem to be the normal thing to do. I am here for you. You are my life’s purpose, you and every other person I encounter along the way. Something i do or say to you might mean something to you, or trigger something in you that changes your life in some way. That is why I am here. And so I figure that if my life’s purpose is in every person that I meet on a daily basis, I am fulfilling my life’s purpose every single day. No matter what I do. And this, I think, is the most amazing part to me. It doesn’t matter what I do in the future, what matters is every person that I come across. I was halfway there in my thinking that I would be happy to live the rest of my life traveling from place to place, meeting new people, bringing people together and imparting whatever thoughts or wisdom I can. This is my life’s purpose. If I do all the ‘normal’ things people do, and settle down and get sucked into the illusion of every day life – work, sleep, tv, eat etc, then I wont be fulfilling my life’s purpose.”

My 24 year old self had some interesting revelations! I shared this on instagram with the photo I found in another 2008 email, this time to my mum, a selfie to show her my new haircut. I was living in New York at the time, so we emailed a lot!

2008 me

I got a few comments on the post, mostly that people resonated with the message. I guess the reason I’m sharing it here, is because this evening I watched perhaps the strangest movie I’ve ever seen – Everything Everywhere All At Once. And the message in that? Nothing Matters. Do what you want to do. Which is what Neale was saying in his book that I read in 2008.

Nothing matters. In the best way possible. The only meaning things have are the meanings we give them. You make things matter. So what matters to you? What do you choose to give meaning?

It really is up to you.

Apr 23 2019

Digital Immortality

Life on Earth was intended to be fleeting.

Our journeys from birth to death, and the transitions through many stages and ages, were to be experienced then discarded and forgotten. We are eternal beings. Our mission here on Earth was to experience the finite nature of humanity.

But the birth of the internet changed all of that.

No longer are the tiny minutiae of our daily lives simply experienced and discarded, by only ourselves and those who are physically present. Now they are recorded, shared, stored and kept (possibly in a country-sized bunker somewhere) for all of time.

The photo of you at seven years old with paint on your face will live in a cloud forever. The ex you dumped ten years ago can still follow your life as if they were still in it. The drunken tweet you posted can cost you the job you really want, even fifteen years after the posting.

Human beings hunger for immortality. To live forever is the ultimate goal. But we’ve forgotten that we do live forever.

Just not in this particular body the whole time.

But the actions, thoughts, meals and nights out that we have experienced in this body may well live forever.

 

Is digital immortality really what we want? To be known forever for the pictures of things we ate, books we read or songs we like? Is it not enough to just share the moment with the people right in front of us, or even just with ourselves?

Would it not be better to be known for an act of kindness, a job well done or a long, healing hug? Or for writing a book that has moved people? Helped them?

 

Part of my need to write books is to be remembered. To leave a legacy of some kind when my soul leaves this body and moves onto the next adventure. The idea that a photo of my gluten-free vegan meal might be remembered more than my novels hurts me. So you can expect less banality and more creativity from me from this point onward. Because I came here to write.

And that is what I intend to do.

Mar 25 2019

Can you really have it all?

There are a lot of articles and videos about the concept of ‘having it all’. The idea is aimed at women, and it’s said that women can now have the career, the relationship, the family, the home etc, etc. They don’t have to choose between one of the other – they can have all of it, all at once. Of course, ‘all’ will be different to each woman, some don’t want children, some don’t want a relationship, and I think the main idea is that women can now choose, instead of having to get married and have children as a matter of course.

But recently I have recognised a pattern in myself (which I am currently working on) that when lots of things are going well in my life, and I reach for the final puzzle piece in order to ‘have it all’ something goes wrong.

One of the other perfectly good pieces suddenly falls apart, and diverts my attention from the final piece, and often distracts me enough to stop reaching for it. And it made me wonder  – are we programmed to choose either/or? Do we actually believe it’s possible to have a good balance between home/love/money/career/family?

Because it’s all very well to say we can have it all, but if we don’t believe it, then it will never happen. So do you believe you can have it all? And do you know what your ‘all’ looks like?

Something to ponder on this Monday morning!

I do love this movie. But it illustrates exactly my point – when she tries to have a high-powered career and also care for a child as a single parent, it seems impossible to ‘have it all’.

Mar 4 2019

Surrender to Wellness…

… rather than fight the illness.

Last night and this morning I have been watching the Heal documentary on Netflix, and then this morning I had a reflexology treatment, during which we were chatting about healing and well-being, and the thought occurred to me that we needed to surrender to wellness, rather than fight the illness.

Because the body only has the ability to heal when it is in a state of rest and relaxation. It cannot heal itself in the fight and flight mode. And let’s be honest, we are in a fight or flight stress mode most of the time. We are always busy, always on the go, always on our phones, always working, always thinking, always worrying… in a constant doing mode.

Then suddenly we get diagnosed with a disease, and what do we do?

We fight it.

We fight this foreign invader in our body. Whether it’s a virus or a malignant growth or whatever. And by fighting it, we actually feed it. We make it stronger. By making it a part of our identity, and our story, we give it life. We make it a whole entity in itself. And we ensure that we will never be free of it. Because that would mean losing part of ourselves.

But what if we surrendered? What if we accepted its presence, and acknowledged that our body is trying to tell us something, and then in a calm, and relaxed manner, began to look at what lies beneath it, what might be causing it. Whether it’s your environment, your diet, the people who are surrounding you, or your thoughts and beliefs and unhealed trauma.

And then we resolve those issues. We change old outdated programming. We lessen the time spent with people who make us feel bad. We change our habits, our diet, and spend more time away from the screen and in nature instead.

There are so many ways to do this. Through complimentary therapies, through meditation and yoga, though EFT, through good conversations with friends. The point is, when you take your well-being and health into your own hands, and take full responsibility for it, you can heal anything.

But most importantly, when you fully and completely relax and rest on a regular basis, you can heal anything.

Your body is amazing, you are amazing, and absolutely anything is possible.

I believe you deserve to be well, do you?

 

Feb 25 2019

Comparison – The Thief

Roosevelt said that comparison is the thief of joy, and I have to say, I quite agree.

It’s a completely different world for authors right now, to just a mere ten years ago, and now, it feels like we should be producing at least ten books a year, to keep up with reader demand. Gone are the days where you could take several years to write a book and hope to do well.

Since I began publishing properly in 2011, I have published at least 2 books a year, and I now have 16 books available. Quite an awesome accomplishment, but instead of revelling in the joy of what I have created, I find myself looking at authors who have published 50 or 60 books in that same amount of time, and wondering why I have been so lazy in comparison.

Then I saw the posts about the latest plagiarism scandal. It seems that a bestselling author in Brazil has been taking chunks of other authors’ work, and giving it to ghostwriters on Fiverr and then publishing what they’ve cobbled together and making a mint from it. She has a large list of books available, and it would seem that none of her material belonged to her.

Which made me wonder, how many of the authors with massive output are actually writing it all themselves? Or even using original material?

And somehow, this made me stop comparing myself to them. Because I know that I write every word of my books. And I know that I only write books that turn up and annoy me until I write them. And that it’s actually quite realistic to write and publish two or three books a year, when you take into account the editing and proofreading, publishing and marketing.

So although I am quite upset for these authors who have had their work ripped to bits and made into bad books that have made thieves a lot of money, I am also grateful to now have been released from this comparison game, and I plan to revel in the joy of each creation, knowing that I am producing work that I am proud of, and that readers will love, and that is wholly my own.

Do you compare yourself or your creativity or your life to others? Do you think that you should be further along, or richer, or better, because you look at what other people are doing?

Let me know in the comments.

Jan 7 2019

Experience, Learn, Heal, Let go, Move on…

Hello beautiful soul! Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read my blog post, I appreciate our attention, and I promise it will be worth the five-minute pause in your busy life.

There’s something that has been bugging me a little bit recently, and I want to share it with you, and see what you think. It feels as though everywhere I look online, there is someone who is sharing their story, about their ill-health, or tragic life event, or personal loss. These stories are inspiring, as they help us to re-evaluate, make sure we are in fact looking after our bodies, making up with those we love, and living life to the fullest.

But for the people telling their story, what worries me is when their story becomes their whole life. Their whole purpose. Their only reason for existing. And this worries me because I feel that actually, their life is about much more than that, and they may be limiting themselves to reliving a traumatic time over and over – in the hope of helping others.

This is very noble, but not very helpful to themselves.

Now this is just my personal opinion, and I’m sure many would disagree with me, but from my point of view, we are here to experience things, learn from them, heal them and them let them go. We aren’t required to live them, then re-live them over and over. Even if it’s in the hope of helping others. Many motivational speakers tell their stories over and over, and yes, many of them have moved on, and so telling their story is just their way of giving back. But some are just stuck in their story, unable to make new ones, and unable to live their life to its fullest.

In my own life, I have experienced and overcome many health issues, relationship issues, financial issues, etc. We all have, it’s an inevitable part of being human. But I don’t talk much about overcoming these things, I am too busy creating what I love. I am too busy writing books, making videos, connecting with my friends and enjoying my life as much as I can. When we tell our stories of our bad experiences too often, we become known for them, and we become associated with them. And I guess I just don’t want to become known as the woman who had this medical issue, or the woman who can’t eat bread, or the woman who survived being penniless and in debt.

I would like to be known for my novels, for my videos about Earth Angels, for my kindness or my fabulous cakes. Or even as that woman who swears too much and believes in unicorns.

Because that woman sounds like a heck of a lot more fun.

Now I’m not advocating that we remain silent when we are in pain, that we don’t reach out for help when we need it, or that we don’t share our stories. Because it is important to connect with others and know you are not alone when you are in the darkness. What I am saying, is that when the darkness moves on, learn from what you experienced, heal it as much as you can, and then let it go with peace, and move on.

The best definition of forgiveness I ever read was along the lines of – If you have truly forgiven someone or something, it means that you will never speak of what hurt you again, because to forgive is to let go. So if you find yourself bringing up a past hurt over and over, even though you have said you have forgiven then, perhaps there is more healing to be done in order for you to let go.

To stay stuck in your stories of pain, is to keep rereading the same bad novel over and over, even though it brings you no joy, even though you are now bored of it, and it no longer helps you in any way. Close the book, and then burn it, or give it away. There are so many new experiences for you out there! A whole infinite library, just waiting for you. There is so much joy for you to feel, so much laughter and excitement. Yes, or course there is more darkness too, but when it comes, you will know not to hold onto it for a moment longer than you need to.

Your words are powerful. They are creating your very reality in every moment. So choose them wisely, because you are making magical spells every time you speak.

 

Thank you for reading this, for allowing me to intrude on your day, and on a lighter note, I hope your 2019 is full of magic and fun. I will do my best to post more often, I have so much I want to share with you! So stay tuned, and please subscribe if you want my posts to arrive in your inbox.

Much love.xx

May 25 2018

Sorry, I have been a bit busy…

… but that’s still no excuse for the lack of blog posts, and I do apologise. I will warn you though, this might be a long update, so grab a cuppa!

So a few weeks ago, I was approached by a journalist from the Daily Mail, who was writing a piece about Earth Angels, and wanted me to take part. I said yes, because my entire purpose revolves around helping Earth Angels to Awaken and realise who they really are, and how best to do that than to be in a national newspaper? So along with three other fabulous Earth Angels (my soul sisters Sarah Rebecca Vine, Kelly Draper and Ruth Bradshaw) I was featured in a double page spread in the Femail section of the paper.

It was a very positive piece, and I was pleased with the result! Doing the photoshoot was a lot of fun, and it was great to see Kelly and Sarah and to meet Ruth. The team who did the shoot were really amazing and really looked after us. Here are some of the behind the scenes shots, and you can read the article online here.

Well, when the article came out, the response was quite amazing! It was discussed on TV and Radio that day, including on the Wright Stuff and Loose Women. The discussion on Loose Women was really positive and Gloria Hunniford tells the story below, and they did a poll, which said that 80% people who voted believed in Angels!

The discussion on the Wright Stuff was less favourable, but it sparked a phone in and got people talking! All in all, an amazing reaction to the piece. I admit, I didn’t read the comments on the Daily Mail site! I was asked to go on a couple of radio shows, and then the piece was also reprinted in South Africa:

Then by the end of the day that the paper came out, we got a call from This Morning – they wanted us to come on the show! Fast forward to last Wednesday, and myself, Sarah and Ruth appeared on This Morning, with Holly and Phil! It was really great fun, the whole team there were so amazing (all Earth Angels, I have no doubt!) and the interview went really well.

Here’s the YouTube clip of the interview:

Philip was actually loving the idea of being an Earth Angel, and he was really lovely! The piece was also covered by pretty much every newspaper online, which was unexpected! And even more unexpected was the positive tone the majority of the papers had! I have read some of the tweets and comments, most of the negative ones say we’re nuts and should be locked away, but there were some really sweet ones too. The whole show had an Earth Angel theme, as Kim Wilde was interviewed after us, and her new album was inspired by a UFO encounter! They also did a phone in and there were some amazing stories shared about angelic encounters. All in all, it was an amazing experience and we all really had so much fun. I also loved the wings!

Here’s some pics!

 

I think that’s everything! Oh, and I started the Fan Club again, it filled up quickly and I am enjoying creating the handmade goodies. And yes, I promise that Book 10 is still coming out on the 1st July, I will be focussing on getting it done in the next week. I already have the covers sorted – I will reveal those very soon! This summer I am doing a lot of Mind Body & Spirit shows and festivals, and I post about those on Facebook. I am also offering Unicorn Workshops, you can see the dates available for those here. 

I will do my best to blog again soon, I’ve really missed it! It’s just been an epically busy year so far, but I am doing my best to make more time for the things I enjoy and to stay connected with your beautiful self!

Until next time…

Feb 16 2018

The Shack

The other night I snuggled down with my latest sewing project and watched The Shack. I had read the book many years ago, and the story had always stayed with me. Family go on camping holiday, dad’s attention is diverted for a few minutes, youngest child goes missing, her clothing is found and she is presumed dead. The father, who is distraught, visits the shack where her clothing was found, and has an experience that changes his life forever.

The film is beautifully acted and shot, and although it has religious tones to it, it is more on the spiritual than dogmatic side. By the end of it, I had big, hot tears soaking into my jumper, my sewing forgotten on my lap. The film addresses the ultimate question, something I have been struggling with recently, which is –

Can we truly forgive those who have hurt us, or the one we love?

Can we truly show them compassion, understanding and even love?

Watching The Shack helped bring me closure on a situation with someone, helped me to forgive them and let them go, and I find that yet again, I have found a movie that is not simply just a piece of entertainment, but an instrument of life change.

I wrote a post a while ago about my favourite spiritual movies, and I think this one has just become my number one.

Have you read or watched The Shack? What are your thoughts? Have you forgiven anyone who has hurt you?

Dec 27 2017

What do you really want?

I hope you have had a happy and fun festive season, and have been with friends and loved ones, eaten good food and been treated to some new things. Maybe you’re starting to look to the New Year, and beyond what you’ve got planned for New Years’ Eve, and are wondering what 2018 will bring.

I can tell you exactly what it will bring. And no, not because I have a crystal ball. (Although, I do have one!)

2018 will bring you exactly what you ask of it. But first, you need to ask.

And to ask, you need to actually know what you want. This time last year, there were many things I wrote down that I wanted to achieve, receive and experience. And I have to say, most have happened. Even the most improbable ones. You might just read this and write it of as Law of Attraction nonsense. But I’m not talking about just making a request and then sitting back and waiting for it to land in your lap. I’m talking about getting really clear on what it is you want, so that not only can you be clear in your requests to the Universe and to others, but you will also know what you are moving towards. You will be able to take action that will get you closer to where you wish to be.

Some things may happen with little work or input from you, and other things will require you put in the time, energy and money to make them happen. But knowing exactly what it is you are working towards is the most important step.

So I will ask again, what do you really want? What is your unicorn? If you feel your goals are huge, and others might not understand them, be sure to keep them just for yourself. After all, nobody needs to know where you are going or what you are creating but you. When you know your desires – write them down. Find images of them. Make a video or yourself talking about them. Do something that shows your commitment to making them happen.

One of my unicorns in 2018 is to get back to blogging more regularly. I fell out of the habit in 2017, and I have missed it. To be able write these posts is a joy of mine, and I plan to bring as much joy into my life in the New Year as possible. So as well as figuring out what you really want, please do let me know if there are any particular posts you would like to see from me too. My plan is to write two blog posts a month, more, if the inspiration begins to flow as it has before. Thank you for reading my blog and supporting it, I really appreciate you, as you are why I continue to do it!

Photo by Aaron Burden on Unsplash

Dec 8 2017

The Illumined Ones

Last Summer, I was honoured to be invited to be a part of an Angel documentary, that a Visionary called Crystal Dawne was creating. I got to watch it a few weeks ago, and I have to say, there were parts that gave me goosebumps, and at the end of it, I just felt so uplifted, and so blessed, it really is a beautiful film.

I’m really pleased that it is now available to stream, on Vimeo, (click here) and also now on Amazon (click here) and iTunes.

You can watch the trailer below, and I do hope that you rent it and watch it. It will be available to download and on DVD soon too, I will keep you updated. The website for the film is www.theilluminedones.com you can find information on all those in the film here.

I would love to know, what has your experience with Angels been? Write in the comments, let’s start talking about these amazing beings.