How Time Flies!

12914843_10153321894867163_755225151_oFive years ago today, myself and my ex-partner’s three kids buried four jars around the garden, containing notes and drawings and things that represented our lives in that moment in time. We then drew a treasure map, and decided that we would dig them up on the 26th March 2016.

 

The weather is terrible, but we went out in the rain in our wellies with a spade, and Luc and I dug up our capsules. The girls will be around later next week, so they will dig theirs up then.

 

 

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12904006_10153321893472163_1848713509_oMine was easy to find, as I had tucked it into the hollow of a tree, and then placed a tribal metal face to protect it.

 

 

 

12903753_10153321893162163_1839105323_oLuc’s was a little more interesting to find! We knew which tree it was, and roughly where, but in no time at all, the spade hit a rock. A giant rock. That didn’t move. A little bit confused, we dug around it, and gradually it started moving.

 

 

 

 

 

12919574_10153321892287163_1116490572_o12899411_10153321891997163_1771774849_oAll the while, we were questioning whether we really would have placed a giant rock over the jar! We had to get a crowbar in the end, to help us ease the rock out, which had actually become attached to the tree root! We managed to lift it out (how we put it in there five years ago, I have no idea) and then with a little more digging. we found Luc’s jar. Phew!

 

 

 

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Muddy and wet, we hosed the jars off, and then came back in to reveal the contents. Luc was only seven years old then, so his jar contained adorable drawings of the things he liked at the time. And a message from his sister!

 

 

 

 

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My jar contained lots of bits, including three lucky stars I had tucked tiny notes into, a haiku, an affirmation card, my lucky golden cat, an almondy tart label, (I loved it!), a Lindt white chocolate wrapper, the February calendar, and a lucky penny!

 

12919542_10153321887367163_173686854_oI also had a note in there about me at that time as well as some pretty wise advice to my 32-year-old self! The date on the note is the 27th February, because that’s when we created the time capsules, but we didn’t bury them until the 26th March.

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Some of my predictions have come true, when we did this in 2011, I had yet to publish any books, and wasn’t anywhere near being a well-known author!

Would highly recommend doing this, especially with kids, as five years is a long time, and it’s fun to look back at what they loved! When creating it, they might not understand why it’s fun or important, but when they dig it up, it’s like time travelling back to that moment.

Just don’t place massive rocks on top that will get entangled in tree roots!

Can You Change Your Fate?

Or I guess better question might be – Should you?

I believe that we should have the choice. That if we choose to go right instead of left, our choice is respected by the Universe, and we are free to make that decision.

But I have found that when I try to change my own fate, as has been laid out by readings I’ve had, visions of my own and what I feel to be the path I am on – nothing works out. Things get stuck, plans go wrong, and frustration sets in. As soon as I move towards the path laid out for me – synchronicities and flow are restored and everything happens with ease and joy.

Which is just a little bit irritating at times.

Because it seems my set path and my desires do not always align. And I don’t know what to do about that. It probably doesn’t help that I’ve always had a ‘life’s too short, do what you want to do now, not later’ mentality. Which means I can be quite impatient at times. It may be that I get to be where I want, with who I want to be with and doing what I want to do – later along this set path. But in this moment right now, ‘later’ is just too far away.

Then again, it’s interesting that I have never been one to plan for the future. I recently read a book called ‘Scarcity: Why having too little means so much’ and it had some very interesting theories in it. The authors say that when there is a scarcity of something, whether it is money, time or love, then the ability to plan ahead, to see further than the present moment, is greatly diminished, or even non-existent. Which means that people who live with a scarcity mentality live purely in the now, and so don’t often save or invest money, or invest their time in projects that will benefit them later on, or be content to wait for the right person to be with.

Reading the book really hit home to me that I have lived my whole life with a scarcity mentality.

I didn’t save up money, I used credit cards if I needed/wanted something.

I didn’t want to attend university to get qualifications because it would take three years, and that was too long, it felt like a waste of time. I didn’t even stay in school to do A-levels, because another two years was too much, I had to get out, and start living, worried that there would not be enough time.

I have become pretty much addicted to technology, because of the ease and speed of it. I love my kindle because if I want to read a book, I can download it in seconds. I love my phone because I get my messages through wherever I am, and googlemaps means I never have to get lost.

I am proud of what I have done so far, and my impatience has served me well in some cases, but I do know that there are so many things I could have done, had I trusted that there was enough.

If I had trusted there was enough time, I might have endured University so that I could get some qualifications, and be working in a decent job right now, instead of having to take on minimum wage jobs when funds are low. I might have saved up money for the things I wanted, and waited until I could afford them, rather than buying now and paying for the interest later. I might also have slowed down a little, enjoyed myself along the way more, rather than zooming from one thing to the next.

If I had trusted there was enough money, I would have created savings, I would have invested, and I would have made better plans for my future. I would have a pension, and I would have figure out how to retire young so I don’t have to work my whole life. I wouldn’t have made silly decisions in the spur of the moment, and I wouldn’t have taken on jobs I hated or tried to start businesses just to make money quickly.

If I had trusted that I was loved, I wouldn’t have been in such a rush to grow up, to meet someone. And if I trusted that the love I have is eternal, I wouldn’t be in such a hurry now to get this stage of my life over with so I can return to the embrace of the one I love.

I don’t do regrets. I have no regrets for the life I have lived so far. It has been a journey I needed to take, to be able to complete my mission, which is to help people. So even if I had a time-travel machine, I would probably still not go back in time and change anything.

But I also believe that once you wake up, there is no going back. Recognising my scarcity mentality has meant that I can no longer live with it. I can no longer tolerate my impatience, and that I need to begin planning for my future, and looking further ahead than the present moment in which I find myself in. Otherwise, in a year’s time, or even in ten years time, I may find myself in the exact same place I am in now. Only older and possibly with more debts!

All I need to decide now, is what I would do if I trusted that there was enough.

There is a story that I think illustrates it perfectly. There is an older couple chatting on the wife’s 70th birthday. She says to her husband that it was always her dream to be a lawyer, but that she never did it. So he suggests that she train to be one. She protests, saying that it will take five years to do the degree, and she would be 75 by the time she qualified. He replies that she will be 75 in five years no matter what. So it’s her choice if she is 75 with a law degree, or 75 without one.

If you trusted that there was enough, what would you do? Do you believe you can change your fate? I’d love to hear your thoughts, please do comment below.

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