Experience, Learn, Heal, Let go, Move on…

Hello beautiful soul! Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read my blog post, I appreciate our attention, and I promise it will be worth the five-minute pause in your busy life.

There’s something that has been bugging me a little bit recently, and I want to share it with you, and see what you think. It feels as though everywhere I look online, there is someone who is sharing their story, about their ill-health, or tragic life event, or personal loss. These stories are inspiring, as they help us to re-evaluate, make sure we are in fact looking after our bodies, making up with those we love, and living life to the fullest.

But for the people telling their story, what worries me is when their story becomes their whole life. Their whole purpose. Their only reason for existing. And this worries me because I feel that actually, their life is about much more than that, and they may be limiting themselves to reliving a traumatic time over and over – in the hope of helping others.

This is very noble, but not very helpful to themselves.

Now this is just my personal opinion, and I’m sure many would disagree with me, but from my point of view, we are here to experience things, learn from them, heal them and them let them go. We aren’t required to live them, then re-live them over and over. Even if it’s in the hope of helping others. Many motivational speakers tell their stories over and over, and yes, many of them have moved on, and so telling their story is just their way of giving back. But some are just stuck in their story, unable to make new ones, and unable to live their life to its fullest.

In my own life, I have experienced and overcome many health issues, relationship issues, financial issues, etc. We all have, it’s an inevitable part of being human. But I don’t talk much about overcoming these things, I am too busy creating what I love. I am too busy writing books, making videos, connecting with my friends and enjoying my life as much as I can. When we tell our stories of our bad experiences too often, we become known for them, and we become associated with them. And I guess I just don’t want to become known as the woman who had this medical issue, or the woman who can’t eat bread, or the woman who survived being penniless and in debt.

I would like to be known for my novels, for my videos about Earth Angels, for my kindness or my fabulous cakes. Or even as that woman who swears too much and believes in unicorns.

Because that woman sounds like a heck of a lot more fun.

Now I’m not advocating that we remain silent when we are in pain, that we don’t reach out for help when we need it, or that we don’t share our stories. Because it is important to connect with others and know you are not alone when you are in the darkness. What I am saying, is that when the darkness moves on, learn from what you experienced, heal it as much as you can, and then let it go with peace, and move on.

The best definition of forgiveness I ever read was along the lines of – If you have truly forgiven someone or something, it means that you will never speak of what hurt you again, because to forgive is to let go. So if you find yourself bringing up a past hurt over and over, even though you have said you have forgiven then, perhaps there is more healing to be done in order for you to let go.

To stay stuck in your stories of pain, is to keep rereading the same bad novel over and over, even though it brings you no joy, even though you are now bored of it, and it no longer helps you in any way. Close the book, and then burn it, or give it away. There are so many new experiences for you out there! A whole infinite library, just waiting for you. There is so much joy for you to feel, so much laughter and excitement. Yes, or course there is more darkness too, but when it comes, you will know not to hold onto it for a moment longer than you need to.

Your words are powerful. They are creating your very reality in every moment. So choose them wisely, because you are making magical spells every time you speak.

 

Thank you for reading this, for allowing me to intrude on your day, and on a lighter note, I hope your 2019 is full of magic and fun. I will do my best to post more often, I have so much I want to share with you! So stay tuned, and please subscribe if you want my posts to arrive in your inbox.

Much love.xx

A Magickal Adventure…

First Words

Hello! How utterly different life can become in such a short space of time. As I mentioned in my last blog post, it was time to begin a new chapter in my life, as my Twin Flame and I parted ways. I didn’t blog during our last couple of weeks together, as apart from being busy packing and seeing friends before I left, I was feeling quite raw emotionally, and didn’t know how to share that with you without losing it completely. Leaving last Tuesday was one of the hardest things I have done in my life so far, as I know anyone out there who has met their Flame will understand. It took a long time to finally let go, and to drive away. Despite having come back together again in the past, there was a feeling that it really would be the last time we would be together in that way, which made it harder still.

But I did leave, and I made my way to my nan’s house, near Bournemouth, where I stayed the night, then after stowing some of my belongings in her garage, I continued on to Brighton. Despite feeling tired and a bit weepy, I found my way, and managed to find a car park and the place where I had been offered somewhere to sleep for the night. That evening I was invited to dinner by my beautiful fan and now very good friend, Chip Jenkins. We ate and discussed our Flames, and had a very girly evening that went on into the early hours! I presented her with her prize for being such a fabulous distributor for the I’m Here Book Tour, which she was thrilled with.

Brighton Seafront

On Thursday, I started my mission of finding some part-time work that will keep things flowing while I write my next book, and I fell in love with the tiny streets full of independent, funky shops. I met lots of people, including the awesome couple who own and run Chocaffinitea (if you are in the area, you need to visit them and try the reindeer tea!), Hannah, a lovely girl (definitely an incarnated elemental) who works in Lush, a tarot reader in RT Home, Sascha, the psychic lady in Bell, Book and Candle and many others! By the end of the day, I had got myself a work trial lined up, in a little cafe in the south laines. I had also found a possible room to rent, and lined up a viewing for later in the day.

Because I had a few hours before the viewing, I decided to visit Lewes, because there were possible jobs there too, as well as rooms to rent. I had a nice little wander around and had food in Bill’s restaurant. Though Lewes was very picturesque, it just didn’t have the same energy as Brighton, and I decided then that I would rather live in Brighton if it was possible. I viewed the room later in the evening, and after chatting to the landlord for so long, it was getting late so I ended up couchsurfing there!

The following day, I did my work trial, and upon the completion of it was offered a position, which I happily accepted, and because my new boss is such a sweet guy, he offered his currently empty driveway to me as a parking place for my car! Later in the afternoon, I found myself back in RT Home, (after celebrating my new job with reindeer tea first of course!) and chatted again to the tarot reader. While chatting about how I had a job, now I just needed a place to live, the lady who owns the shop, Joni, joined in the conversation to say that she had a room she was renting out that she hadn’t got round to advertising yet. So later on Friday evening, after a tasty dinner in the Harvester on the seafront, I went to Joni’s house to see the room.

Yet again, I was there for so long, that Joni very kindly offered I stay there for the night (having been unable to find a couchsurfing place for the weekend) and so after a crazy little journey to retrieve my car, park it on my new bosses driveway, then get the bus back here, I stayed in the room for the night.

By the morning, I told Joni that if she was happy to have me there, I’d love to rent it.

And the rest, as they say, is history!

My new Home

So in two and a half days, I found a job, a room to rent, and a place to park my car. I was actually quite impressed! I seem to have much more energy here, and things are just flowing so well, I really couldn’t have predicted any of this. It seems that I really have been paddling upstream for the last few months, and now, as I go with the flow, it is all clicking into place.

The spiritual community and writing scene in Brighton seems to be pretty extensive, with events and meetings happening all the time. I plan on attending as many as possible, and really getting involved. In fact, later tonight I will be checking out a writing group, so I will let you know how that goes! Now that my computer is back in its rightful place on my desk, and I have settled in, I will get back to my regularly scheduled blogging!

Wishing you all a wonderful Wednesday! Until next time…

Dear Twin Flames,

I am writing this letter to you. You know who you are. You are the beautiful soul who is in pain right now. You are the wonderful being who is on this planet to make a difference. But in this moment, everything is clouded with the overwhelming and devastating feeling of loss.

Because you have found the one. The one who loves you unconditionally. The one who makes you feel alive. The one who fits perfectly. The one who makes you feel as though you have finally come home.

The one who has left you.

I know you are searching for answers. On the internet, in books, in movies. I know that you are looking for the secret, for the magic spell that will make it all right again. That will bring your Flame back to you, where they belong. And I know you have yet to find it. And that is because there is no secret. There is no magic spell. There is only the truth.

If you wish for a future with your Flame, you must let them go. You must cut the cords. You must say good-bye. And you must move on.

Focus all of your energy on yourself. On your mission, on your health, on your well-being. Focus on joy and laughter, and friendship and the beauty that surrounds you. It is only then, that you might find yourselves back on a path toward each other.

I am guessing that at this moment in time, you are shaking your head and thinking – “This woman has no clue! How could I possibly do any of that, when I feel like this? When I am in this pit of despair? She has obviously never been where I am.”

But I have, dear Flames. I have been there not just once, but several times. And the first time, well, I didn’t think I would survive it. It was so very dark in that pit, no light found its way to me. None at all. And I wished that someone could have told me what I am telling you now.

You will get through it. I know you will. You are much, much stronger than you realise. And though being with your Flame in this lifetime is indeed part of your journey, it is not the entire journey. There are many other reasons why you are here right now. And those reasons are very much worth living for. If you find that you move on, and you do not reunite with your Flame, do not fall into fear or despair, instead, remember what Dr Seuss said – “Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.”  Last year, I bought a little sign that bore that quote. The reason I loved it, and it made me more joyful, is because I realised, finally, that even though I was not with my Flame at that time, I had been with him. I had experienced his love, I had felt the depth of our connection, I had been completely at home in his arms, and even if I never experienced those things again, I knew I was lucky. Because there are so many souls who have never and might never experience that. I was so grateful to have had those moments with my Flame, and though the darkness without him was overwhelming, I wouldn’t have traded in my moments with him for a lifetime without having ever met him.

And I know you wouldn’t either.

I hope this letter shines a little light in your direction, and that it begins the healing of your heart. It will be whole again one day, I promise. I am sending you so much love and the brightest light to you, my dear Flames, and I am asking the Angels to envelop you in their wings while you heal and nurture yourself. Please, if you are in need of a friend, reach out, send me a message. I do not think I have all the answers, but I can provide an ear and a shoulder.

Love and blessings to you all,

Michelle

xx

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The Speed of Change

Mating Butterflies

I know that I am not the only one who has noticed just how quickly life seems to be changing at the moment. To me it feels as though my life has been a constant series of changes since around 2006. More has happened in my life in the last 7 years than happened in the previous 22 years. Why is this? Is it simply the idea that time speeds up as we age, or is it more than that? Because it is not just that things are changing quickly, but that things and situations are being rapidly manifested.

Just four days after writing about Twin Flame Relationships, everything changed for me.

I met up with my own Twin Flame, for dinner and to chat. Despite not having been together in a relationship for more than 6 months, we still missed each other’s company. He was the one who had sent me the video on Youtube of the stages of a Twin Flame relationship. He had recognised our relationship in the patterns described, and thought I would find it interesting. We talked all evening, and met up a couple more times over the course of the following week, and by the end of the next weekend, (14th July) we were back together. He asked me to move in with him and so here I am, just 20 days after writing about getting a second chance to be with a Twin Flame, with my Flame, living the life that I had always wanted to live.

Did I manifest it? Or were we fated to get back together? I was only in the area because my dear Faerie friend from Peace of Stone had invited me to stay with her for the week. What if I had refused the invitation? Would my reunion with my Flame not have happened? Or was it because I chose a parallel universe where we were together? Have I skipped to another dimension, another reality?

I suppose the real question is, does any of that matter? I had hoped that perhaps I would be able to offer some guidance and wisdom to other souls out there who know their Flames but are not with them. I guess all I can say is – if it is meant to be, then it will be. And don’t hold on to the past. It was only when I truly and completely let go of the idea of being with my Twin, only when I accepted that it may well never happen, cut all energetic cords and ties to him, that it finally did happen. I was willing to move on, to live my life without him, and to make the best I possibly could with what I had.

So perhaps gratitude for whatever we have in our lives, even if it’s not what we really want, is the key to manifesting what we do really want.

What do you think?